Dear Babygirl,
I know that you feel like you have been to hell and back but trust me when I say that you are not alone. I know that your heart is shattered, hope no longer existent, and you feel like you've sold your soul to the devil but trust me when I say that things are going to get better. You see babe, I've been where you have been and I'm here to tell you that you will get through this.
I know that he said that he loved you but his actions spoke otherwise. I know that you bent over backwards and he wasn't even willing to lift a finger for you. I know honey...I know. I know that you'd rather cry yourself to sleep and not wake up because the pain has penetrated through your skin, has intoxicated your bloodstream and now has reached your heart. You'd rather stay motionless and senseless than to feel that pain within the seconds that you awake.
I know that it may hurt to see him love another the same way that he loved you. You thought you were his one and only when really you were just one of many. Those very words, those gestures and those promises, he made to someone else as well. I know that you feel like nothing in this world matters now but what matters is that you are still living. I know that you feel lonely. You feel as if a part of your heart is missing and you feel that tingle that just makes you want to breakdown but you have people like me to lean on, to tell you that things are going to be alright.
You see, you are an amazing woman. He took you for granted and was so possesive of you because he knew deep down that you were a good thing. Although babe as much as you try to excuse his disrespectful actions, ask yourself this...why am I protecting someone that is hurting me in return? You deserve better than this. I know that it's hard and it will be hard for a while but you need to stop looking out for him and start being selfish for once. Do this for you and no one else. Put your foot down and say that you've had enough because why rely on someone to make you happy when you need to be happy and content with youself first. Trust me when I say that things happen for a reason and be that strong girl that don't crap from no none that I know you can be because babygirl, things will get better..just wait and see...but in the meantime babe, share your fireworks with the people that really love you.
Always here,
jerm
..."even brighter than the moon, moon, moon. It's always been inside of you and now it's time to let it through. Cause baby you're a firework. Come on show 'em what your worth"...
Showing posts with label Letters. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Letters. Show all posts
Monday, November 1, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Letter 6: Your Best Friend
Dear it-ten,
Even though we are blood, from the time we were of age where we knew what was going around us..we never really got along. I remember being 4 years old and always fighting with you. Pulling hair and secretly pinching each other. However who knew that later down the road that we would become as close as we are today. You know all of my best qualities and my flaws yet still love me for everything that I'am. You have been there to see me rise and you have seen me get back on my feet during all those times I've fallen. You know all my secrets and I know yours. You have always been there to keep me in check and tell me the straight facts like a warm shot of dark Henn.
We are a month apart and I often feel that you are the sister that I've never had. We tricked so many people in high school making them believe that we were really blood sisters with different dads. LOL. We have similar birth marks on our thighs for god sakes. I appreciate that you take care of my brother, you help mom from time and to time, and you are always looking out for me. You've always been willing to go to concerts with me, to hike with me, to shop with me, to try new things with me, travel with me and most importantly you have always been down for me. They say that blood is thicker than water and with the trials/tribulations that we have been through, this blood line will only get thicker and will be flowing stronger than ever. Love you sis.
your sister from another mister,
em-mel
We are a month apart and I often feel that you are the sister that I've never had. We tricked so many people in high school making them believe that we were really blood sisters with different dads. LOL. We have similar birth marks on our thighs for god sakes. I appreciate that you take care of my brother, you help mom from time and to time, and you are always looking out for me. You've always been willing to go to concerts with me, to hike with me, to shop with me, to try new things with me, travel with me and most importantly you have always been down for me. They say that blood is thicker than water and with the trials/tribulations that we have been through, this blood line will only get thicker and will be flowing stronger than ever. Love you sis.
your sister from another mister,
em-mel
Friday, September 10, 2010
Letter 5: Someone that changed your life
Dear Bwea,
I know that we are not in the right state of mind and that our conversations have been a little stale but I just want to tell you that you have changed my life. It's because of you I've learned so much about myself and what type of person I want to eventually become. You have encouraged me in all that I have wanted to do in life and I thank you for that. It takes a patient individual to understand where another person has been and where their dreams may lead them. I just hope that no matter where our hearts guide us that we still have one another in each other's lives.
Our chemistry is undeniable and the way we inspire one another gives us motivation to be that much better. We've always said that we could not be where we are today without one another. However, you never needed me. I may have inspired/motivated you to do things but that will power has always lived within you, you just needed someone to help you realize your potential. There are no words that can transcript how wonderful your love has been when life and time were not on my side. You always knew what to do. It makes me smile just thinking about how everything makes sense when we are together.
I feel like all the recent events have pushed us farther when we both thought that we were on the same page. This pain that I feel...tell me when does it goes away? They say that time heals everything but tell me why does this distance feel so cold? and why does time taunt me by making the seconds feel like hours? Is that the way love goes?
You are a great person with a great heart and with such a musically inclined soul...you just need to keep finding ways to share your gift with the rest of the world. So prepare as much as you can for all of the worst case scenarios, create various back-up plans and create meaningful relationships with whomever you meet...because the world is just waiting for your arrival. I just hope that I will be there to witness it all.
If you need me, you know where to find me because I'm never leaving. Let me know when you want to revisit the place where love first found us.
"I promise. Forever"
Love,
Your Runaway
..."I wont give up. I'm too much in love and I want you to know that. Just take my hand, fall in love with me again"....
I know that we are not in the right state of mind and that our conversations have been a little stale but I just want to tell you that you have changed my life. It's because of you I've learned so much about myself and what type of person I want to eventually become. You have encouraged me in all that I have wanted to do in life and I thank you for that. It takes a patient individual to understand where another person has been and where their dreams may lead them. I just hope that no matter where our hearts guide us that we still have one another in each other's lives.
Our chemistry is undeniable and the way we inspire one another gives us motivation to be that much better. We've always said that we could not be where we are today without one another. However, you never needed me. I may have inspired/motivated you to do things but that will power has always lived within you, you just needed someone to help you realize your potential. There are no words that can transcript how wonderful your love has been when life and time were not on my side. You always knew what to do. It makes me smile just thinking about how everything makes sense when we are together.
I feel like all the recent events have pushed us farther when we both thought that we were on the same page. This pain that I feel...tell me when does it goes away? They say that time heals everything but tell me why does this distance feel so cold? and why does time taunt me by making the seconds feel like hours? Is that the way love goes?
You are a great person with a great heart and with such a musically inclined soul...you just need to keep finding ways to share your gift with the rest of the world. So prepare as much as you can for all of the worst case scenarios, create various back-up plans and create meaningful relationships with whomever you meet...because the world is just waiting for your arrival. I just hope that I will be there to witness it all.
If you need me, you know where to find me because I'm never leaving. Let me know when you want to revisit the place where love first found us.
"I promise. Forever"
Love,
Your Runaway
..."I wont give up. I'm too much in love and I want you to know that. Just take my hand, fall in love with me again"....
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Letter 4: Not In Your State/Country
Dear NYC,
I have to admit. When I first booked my ticket, I did not know what to expect. I've been talking about flying over to your side of the country for quite sometime now. Everyone is afraid of the unknown and I just did not know what you had in store for me. Little did I know, you had great things lined up.
There was never a dull moment. There were so many places to go, people to see and things to eat. You truly live up to the name of "the city that never sleeps" because I hardly got too but at the same time who wanted to? Waking up at the crack of dawn and beating the sun home had to be best because rain or shine, I wanted to soak you in. Although I was extremely exhausted, I just could not get enough. You understood my life and showed me how I could fit in. Your lights inspired me, your landmarks made me more appreciative, your music lifted my spirits and your locals left me hopeful.
I love my home but there is just so much more to see in this world. I've dreamed of stepping foot on your grounds and now that I finally have, you've opened my eyes to much more. I've grown up in a place that's rich of culture. However New York, you are wealthy as well. Not only are you financially wealthy but are wealthy of culture that is statured to your own history and are wealthy of a population blend that's hard to deny. My favorite part had to be Brooklyn. It made me feel at home and I felt like I belonged there, like I understood the life stories of the neighbors. Many of the mothers that I've bumped into there, I can tell that they are working hard to set food on the table. I can tell that the fathers are trying to work extra shifts just to make ends meet and I know that the kids there are trying to strive in school so that their parents' sacrifices are not going unnoticed. How can I tell that you ask? Because I was one of those kids. If I ever have a daughter, I'm seriously naming her Brooke because Brooklyn is where I fell in love with you.
Jay-Z was not lying when he said that you were the "concrete jungle were dreams are made of" because being there with you made me realize my dreams and where I want to be in life. I'm young with big dreams and I hope to return at your doorstep to make them come true. I had to empty out my luggage the other day and it was bittersweet. I may have had to empty out my luggage but there are so many things that I have learned on that trip that I could never empty out of my heart. I love you and miss you NYC and a piece of me is still with you. So keep that piece of me safe, don't wait up for me and don't dim those lights because I'll be back and I'll be ready for all of the other things that you will have ready for me.
With love,
Your Hawaii Girl
..."I said hello BROOKLYN but baby I hope you neva say goodbye to me. I said Hello Brooklyn. Baby you're so damn fine to me and I remember the time, place, & the weather ON THE DAY YOU SAID HI TO ME"...
I have to admit. When I first booked my ticket, I did not know what to expect. I've been talking about flying over to your side of the country for quite sometime now. Everyone is afraid of the unknown and I just did not know what you had in store for me. Little did I know, you had great things lined up.
There was never a dull moment. There were so many places to go, people to see and things to eat. You truly live up to the name of "the city that never sleeps" because I hardly got too but at the same time who wanted to? Waking up at the crack of dawn and beating the sun home had to be best because rain or shine, I wanted to soak you in. Although I was extremely exhausted, I just could not get enough. You understood my life and showed me how I could fit in. Your lights inspired me, your landmarks made me more appreciative, your music lifted my spirits and your locals left me hopeful.
I love my home but there is just so much more to see in this world. I've dreamed of stepping foot on your grounds and now that I finally have, you've opened my eyes to much more. I've grown up in a place that's rich of culture. However New York, you are wealthy as well. Not only are you financially wealthy but are wealthy of culture that is statured to your own history and are wealthy of a population blend that's hard to deny. My favorite part had to be Brooklyn. It made me feel at home and I felt like I belonged there, like I understood the life stories of the neighbors. Many of the mothers that I've bumped into there, I can tell that they are working hard to set food on the table. I can tell that the fathers are trying to work extra shifts just to make ends meet and I know that the kids there are trying to strive in school so that their parents' sacrifices are not going unnoticed. How can I tell that you ask? Because I was one of those kids. If I ever have a daughter, I'm seriously naming her Brooke because Brooklyn is where I fell in love with you.
Jay-Z was not lying when he said that you were the "concrete jungle were dreams are made of" because being there with you made me realize my dreams and where I want to be in life. I'm young with big dreams and I hope to return at your doorstep to make them come true. I had to empty out my luggage the other day and it was bittersweet. I may have had to empty out my luggage but there are so many things that I have learned on that trip that I could never empty out of my heart. I love you and miss you NYC and a piece of me is still with you. So keep that piece of me safe, don't wait up for me and don't dim those lights because I'll be back and I'll be ready for all of the other things that you will have ready for me.
With love,
Your Hawaii Girl
..."I said hello BROOKLYN but baby I hope you neva say goodbye to me. I said Hello Brooklyn. Baby you're so damn fine to me and I remember the time, place, & the weather ON THE DAY YOU SAID HI TO ME"...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Letter 3: Former Love
Dear Ex,
Let me just start off by saying that you were everything I knew for so long and even though we are not together anymore, a part of me still loves you. I look back at the time that we were given and it amazes me how much we have been through. Sometimes I feel that the things that we have experienced were granted too early and we tended to not be so appreciative. Since we've parted, I feel like I have nothing left to give. I feel like a tin man wishing for something to return my ability to feel.
We fought, we made up, and had such great love. You were the first person that I could ever see myself marrying. We talked about how we were going to save for a house and how we were going to to have a family. How we were going to raise our kids around sports and academics and how it would just be us...till death do us part. You were the love of my life.
The day that I decided to walk away from you completely, the one thing that I was so grateful for was learning how to love unconditionally. Through all the mistakes that I have committed and with everything you have put me through, we stuck it out and we blew people away by surviving as long as we did. Although we don't talk, I hope that if we ever bump into each other down the road that you can acknowledge me. You know that all you have to do is shoot me a glance and I'll know what your heart is trying to say. After all, we were a big part of each other's lives.
You are a great man and I hope that you find what you were looking for. I wish nothing but happiness and success in all that you do. We have different lives now and we often believed that things happened for a reason. I think that we needed each other in order to learn about life and in order to grow up. Without you, I could not be the strong person that I'am today. I hope that the next girl that you fall for treats you better than I did and loves you for all that you are.
The part of me that still loves you is a part that loves you for the relationship because it taught me how love should feel. I love you for the heartache because it taught me how to mend a broken heart. Last but not least...I love you most of all for the memories...some of my best ones were only great because I wouldn't have wanted to spend it with anyone else but you.
I guess what they say is true, the hottest love also has the coldest ending.
my best,
B
Let me just start off by saying that you were everything I knew for so long and even though we are not together anymore, a part of me still loves you. I look back at the time that we were given and it amazes me how much we have been through. Sometimes I feel that the things that we have experienced were granted too early and we tended to not be so appreciative. Since we've parted, I feel like I have nothing left to give. I feel like a tin man wishing for something to return my ability to feel.
We fought, we made up, and had such great love. You were the first person that I could ever see myself marrying. We talked about how we were going to save for a house and how we were going to to have a family. How we were going to raise our kids around sports and academics and how it would just be us...till death do us part. You were the love of my life.
The day that I decided to walk away from you completely, the one thing that I was so grateful for was learning how to love unconditionally. Through all the mistakes that I have committed and with everything you have put me through, we stuck it out and we blew people away by surviving as long as we did. Although we don't talk, I hope that if we ever bump into each other down the road that you can acknowledge me. You know that all you have to do is shoot me a glance and I'll know what your heart is trying to say. After all, we were a big part of each other's lives.
You are a great man and I hope that you find what you were looking for. I wish nothing but happiness and success in all that you do. We have different lives now and we often believed that things happened for a reason. I think that we needed each other in order to learn about life and in order to grow up. Without you, I could not be the strong person that I'am today. I hope that the next girl that you fall for treats you better than I did and loves you for all that you are.
The part of me that still loves you is a part that loves you for the relationship because it taught me how love should feel. I love you for the heartache because it taught me how to mend a broken heart. Last but not least...I love you most of all for the memories...some of my best ones were only great because I wouldn't have wanted to spend it with anyone else but you.
I guess what they say is true, the hottest love also has the coldest ending.
my best,
B
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Letter 2: Someone You Wish You Could Meet
Dear Baby Taylor,
I know that I have never met you but I wish I could have held you at least once. I wish I could have glanced into your gleaming eyes. I wish I could have learned more about you and help you with the life that was waiting ahead of you.
The love that I have for you is small but it has impacted me so much as a person. No matter how many years pass, no matter where life takes me, you know that I will have a special place for you. For me you would have been my first to many things and I thought about all the things we could have done.
Your mother loved you dearly and tried her best to hold on to you as long as she could. Your father wishes that the situation was different. You would have been precious and I know that you would have brought so much joy to the people that you would have met in your life.
I know that you weren't given a chance at life since it was cut so short but if I could, I would have traded mines for yours. When there was nothing else left to do, we all broke down and a part of me went with you when you were taken away. You would have been great my love...sooo great.
Always Thinking of You,
Big Ma
Rest In Paradise Baby (July 7, 2010)
Friday, July 9, 2010
Letter 1: Sibling
Dear Boo boo,
I remember when I first laid my eyes on you. You were so small and fragile and tomorrow will mark one year of your existence. I'll be honest, I wasn't too excited when I found out mommy was pregnant with you because of the age difference but with these past 12 months...I've learned to love you more and more each day.
I've watched you try new food, utter your first words, and now learning how to walk. Even though people think that you are my son at times, it's ok because you have truly taught me how to nurture love. Kissing you bye in the morning and seeing you smile when I come home at night gives me all the support that I need to keep going everyday.
I remember when you were only three months old. We were in my room and I held you close in my arms trying to caress you to sleep at 3am. That very second you laid your head on my chest and wrapped your tiny fingers around mine, I remember kissing your forehead as I whispered, "I'll protect you forever."
As long as I live boo boo, I'll be here to protect to you, care for you and love you. I'll be here to listen to you when mommy and pops don't quite understand your generation. I'll be here to give you advice when those girls give you a hard time and most of all I'll be here when you feel like you got no one else.
--Your Manang
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