I Got Your Back Boy(s)

I’m one of the few girls I know that kicks it with a bunch of dudes versus a flock of chicks. And please don’t get it twisted cause the guys that I spend majority of my time with are homies, buds, big and little brothers. These guys are the very ones that will invite me as the only female to a guys night out, carry my behind out of the club when I’ve had too much to drink, will rescue me when a case of ugly tries to rub up against me on the dance floor and will be the first ones to make sure that my swag for the showcase of potentials is always at its best. Since my boys look out for me, I return the favor by having their backs as well.

When it comes to girls that my boys are peepin’, best believe I will be the first to check this beezy out. Not because I’m jealous or because I’ve drank a pint of hater-ade but it’s because my GOOD boys deserve GOOD girls. Sure my boys have done some bad things in the past but no one is perfect. What is important is that I only run with fellas that have good intentions and good hearts. My guys will tell you, I turn into protective sister/mama bear when it comes to matters of the heart and majority of the time they will ask for my approval on more things than one. I try my best to make sure that my boys are not being toyed with and I make sure that they prepare themselves for what they may be getting into.

Let’s face it…guys will be guys and when they come to me whining about their whiplash of b*tchyness from some of these girls, please don’t call me one-sided because I always make sure that I give them my two cents. Sometimes their idiotic actions deserved that whiplash. Most of the time, I'm the one that they are confiding in with their girl issues and I'm the one telling them how to patch things up.

This world is not as big as we may think because you know that everyone knows someone that knows a person that may know you but you can’t seem to even recall their existence in return. LOL. It’s the journalist in me when I do background checks on these girls. Like I said before, people make mistakes. I have made mistakes. My boys have made mistakes and these girls have their mistakes as well. However I try to not let history repeat itself. So if I know that this girl swears she is a monogamist but I got other people saying that she is a floozie, you already know I’ll be telling my homie that he better watch himself. I also know that on the turn side that past mistakes means lessons learned for some but there is nothing wrong with being over prepared for what may be the worst to come.

I love my boys down to the ground so either way..to the girls that are thinking of/talking/dating/or going out with any of my close guys friends, know this:

Whether I think that you are a right match for my boy or not..and whether or not you like me, just know that I will RESPECT you because I got no problem swallowing my pride for the love of my boy(s). I can only hope that you do the adult thing and give that in return.

I hope that you care for my boy at least because know that I care for this dude like no other...just make sure that you are keeping him happy. As long as my boy is happy then I’m happy. Recognize that my boy is a good person.  If you haven’t figured that out yet then gets a steppin’ because what you need to remember is that there is some other girl out there that can do everything that you are currently doing but BETTER...and still, he chose you.

..."We were high. We were low but I promise I will never let you go, said I got your back boy"...

A Love Like That

I know that love isn't perfect but as I was writing this... I'd like to think that there is a type of love out there for everyone:

I want a love that will respect my independence, yet have a part of them show me that they are dependent on my love.
Love that can clean up real nice in formal attire, yet can love you down in them pajamas.
Love that don't specifically prefer your genre of music yet are thankful for expanding their genre of artists.
The type of love that can be stubborn by sticking to their beliefs yet at the same time be open minded to learn about yours.
Love that can enlighten you with them late night discussions, yet be able to crack them inside jokes.
Love that is selfish to make their childhood dreams a reality, yet is selfless to make your stars align as well.
Love that will let you be after a disagreement, yet  reassure you they will never leave.
Love that will let you fight your own battles, yet will be the first one to step up as your backup.
Love that will wipe away your tears, yet will make you cry tears of happiness.
Love that notices your youthful self has aged yet knows that you have grown with knowledge of lifes lessons.
Love that lasts a lifetime yet still gives you those same butterflies from when you first met.



"I never knew a luh, luh-luh, a love like this.....there is a light, that shines, special for you and me"

Summer Lovin'

Now that it is officially summer, there are a couple of things that I'd like to accomplish within these three months. Since school is out of session, I feel as if there will be more time for me to accomplish more.
And they are:

1. HUSTLE
That means obtaining more contract jobs that pay well.

2. HIKE 
There are some trails that still need to be conquered.

3. BEACH IT
That means body boarding and surfing, got to take advantage of what this island has to offer.

4. WORK OUT
Got to keep certain places in tack and tight. Insanity and going to the super sport more often.

5. SAVE MONEY
Got to save up for the summer escapade with the cousins.

6. HANDS - ON 
I have to get back into my arts and crafts boxes and start experimenting again.

7. COOK & EAT HEALTHY
I have to try new recipes,  and choose wiser eatery choices. This will also save me money. Balon.

8. ACADEMICALLY INCLINE
Finish up my thesis chapters and prep it for data collection this summer.

9. LITERARY STIMULATION
Roam through a library/bookstore to pick up new reads or revisit my personal library for re-reads.

10. SELF REJUVENATION
Work on my flaws in order to be a better person to my family, friends, enemies, and most importantly..myself.


Let's kick summer off on a good start and let's do it right. I'm not changing or evolving just improving. :)


"ain't nothing like them summer nights."

My Girls Say The Darnest Things

"it's time to stop rewinding & go forward." 
Ash Tunac

Just One Of Them Days

It is one of them days. Where I'm tired of doing everything that falls into the "priority" category. One of them days where people take a glance at me and ask me, "you ok? you look tired." As much as I want to give them that digusted look and say "I know that I look like *ish, can you please not say it out loud to remind me"...I smile and say "I'm good."

It is just one of them days. You know those days where you are so caught up on your grind, that you lose the track of time and wish that there were more hours attached to the day to knock off the things that you got on your to-do list. You know them days where you wish that the sun could break through those gray clouds, just so that it could shine those positive vibes you need to conquer the day.

Yeah love, its just one of them days. Them days where you wish you could explain to your boo how you are feelin but instead you'd rather play Monica's, "Don't Take It Personal" and have him listen to the lyrics. It's just one of them days where you know that your nails could use a stroke of polish and you would rather not deal with your hair, so you just roll it up in a bun. You know you should retire those fab Steve Madden sandals cause they are so worn that they are having conversations with the ground that you walk on but ...it's just one of them days.

It's just one of them days where you just want to forget about everyone and everything for a second, just so you can FOCUS ON YOU. Where you wish you could press that snooze button one more time because you just need 10 more minutes. Just one of them days where instead of being at work you'd rather be at home. At home under the covers in your PJs, watching old-school re-runs while being on full hefer status with that pint of ice cream. Its just one of them days where you wish that monetary status did not make the world function and wished that you could just wash all our troubles away with a simple dip in the big blue ocean.

It's just one of them days where you feel uninspired and motivated. Where redundancy has truly been played out. Those days where the mind and body are not on the same page.  Those days where you just feel so out of touch with yourself. Those days where you feel that your deadlines are tailing you and you are being stretched so thin that you have become transparent.

However despite the madness, despite your exhaustion...you don't let it get to you. You keep pushing, you keep looking forward and you tell yourself that yes it is simply...just one of them days. Even though you may not be at a 100%, you are grateful that you were able to see another day.

..."cry if you have to. shout if you have to but you've come this far. please don't give up. a small step forward is still a step in the right direction"...

..."think that I might back down but I won't. think that I might have doubts but I don't. no insecurities, won't you just let me, let me be"...