Birthday Cake Resting In Thug Mansion

I remember when I listened to my first Tupac song. I was 6 years old. I was in the my mom's red celica and she was picking me up from A+. Keep Ya Head Up boomed through the speakers and it has been a song that has stayed with me ever since. This song helped me get through a lot. Another song that helped opened my eyes to events that were not in the news lime-light was, Changes. Thanks to the words of an actor, social activist, and top-selling rapper...my eyes opened up a little bigger to be aware of things that did not only pertain to my state or the national level but to the world.

Rest In Paradise

Tupac Amaru Shakur

June 16, 1971 – September 13, 1996

"You can't complain you was dealt this.

Hell of a hand without a man, feelin helpless because there's too many things for you to deal with.

Dying inside, but outside you're looking fearless...

Ooh child, things are gonna get easier. Ooh child things gon' get brighter."

"We gotta make a change...
It's time for us as a people to start makin' some changes.
Let's change the way we eat, let's change the way we live
and let's change the way we treat each other.
You see the old way wasn't working so it's on us to do
what we gotta do, to survive."

I Got Your Back Boy(s)

I’m one of the few girls I know that kicks it with a bunch of dudes versus a flock of chicks. And please don’t get it twisted cause the guys that I spend majority of my time with are homies, buds, big and little brothers. These guys are the very ones that will invite me as the only female to a guys night out, carry my behind out of the club when I’ve had too much to drink, will rescue me when a case of ugly tries to rub up against me on the dance floor and will be the first ones to make sure that my swag for the showcase of potentials is always at its best. Since my boys look out for me, I return the favor by having their backs as well.

When it comes to girls that my boys are peepin’, best believe I will be the first to check this beezy out. Not because I’m jealous or because I’ve drank a pint of hater-ade but it’s because my GOOD boys deserve GOOD girls. Sure my boys have done some bad things in the past but no one is perfect. What is important is that I only run with fellas that have good intentions and good hearts. My guys will tell you, I turn into protective sister/mama bear when it comes to matters of the heart and majority of the time they will ask for my approval on more things than one. I try my best to make sure that my boys are not being toyed with and I make sure that they prepare themselves for what they may be getting into.

Let’s face it…guys will be guys and when they come to me whining about their whiplash of b*tchyness from some of these girls, please don’t call me one-sided because I always make sure that I give them my two cents. Sometimes their idiotic actions deserved that whiplash. Most of the time, I'm the one that they are confiding in with their girl issues and I'm the one telling them how to patch things up.

This world is not as big as we may think because you know that everyone knows someone that knows a person that may know you but you can’t seem to even recall their existence in return. LOL. It’s the journalist in me when I do background checks on these girls. Like I said before, people make mistakes. I have made mistakes. My boys have made mistakes and these girls have their mistakes as well. However I try to not let history repeat itself. So if I know that this girl swears she is a monogamist but I got other people saying that she is a floozie, you already know I’ll be telling my homie that he better watch himself. I also know that on the turn side that past mistakes means lessons learned for some but there is nothing wrong with being over prepared for what may be the worst to come.

I love my boys down to the ground so either way..to the girls that are thinking of/talking/dating/or going out with any of my close guys friends, know this:

Whether I think that you are a right match for my boy or not..and whether or not you like me, just know that I will RESPECT you because I got no problem swallowing my pride for the love of my boy(s). I can only hope that you do the adult thing and give that in return.

I hope that you care for my boy at least because know that I care for this dude like no other...just make sure that you are keeping him happy. As long as my boy is happy then I’m happy. Recognize that my boy is a good person.  If you haven’t figured that out yet then gets a steppin’ because what you need to remember is that there is some other girl out there that can do everything that you are currently doing but BETTER...and still, he chose you.

..."We were high. We were low but I promise I will never let you go, said I got your back boy"...

A Love Like That

I know that love isn't perfect but as I was writing this... I'd like to think that there is a type of love out there for everyone:

I want a love that will respect my independence, yet have a part of them show me that they are dependent on my love.
Love that can clean up real nice in formal attire, yet can love you down in them pajamas.
Love that don't specifically prefer your genre of music yet are thankful for expanding their genre of artists.
The type of love that can be stubborn by sticking to their beliefs yet at the same time be open minded to learn about yours.
Love that can enlighten you with them late night discussions, yet be able to crack them inside jokes.
Love that is selfish to make their childhood dreams a reality, yet is selfless to make your stars align as well.
Love that will let you be after a disagreement, yet  reassure you they will never leave.
Love that will let you fight your own battles, yet will be the first one to step up as your backup.
Love that will wipe away your tears, yet will make you cry tears of happiness.
Love that notices your youthful self has aged yet knows that you have grown with knowledge of lifes lessons.
Love that lasts a lifetime yet still gives you those same butterflies from when you first met.



"I never knew a luh, luh-luh, a love like this.....there is a light, that shines, special for you and me"

Summer Lovin'

Now that it is officially summer, there are a couple of things that I'd like to accomplish within these three months. Since school is out of session, I feel as if there will be more time for me to accomplish more.
And they are:

1. HUSTLE
That means obtaining more contract jobs that pay well.

2. HIKE 
There are some trails that still need to be conquered.

3. BEACH IT
That means body boarding and surfing, got to take advantage of what this island has to offer.

4. WORK OUT
Got to keep certain places in tack and tight. Insanity and going to the super sport more often.

5. SAVE MONEY
Got to save up for the summer escapade with the cousins.

6. HANDS - ON 
I have to get back into my arts and crafts boxes and start experimenting again.

7. COOK & EAT HEALTHY
I have to try new recipes,  and choose wiser eatery choices. This will also save me money. Balon.

8. ACADEMICALLY INCLINE
Finish up my thesis chapters and prep it for data collection this summer.

9. LITERARY STIMULATION
Roam through a library/bookstore to pick up new reads or revisit my personal library for re-reads.

10. SELF REJUVENATION
Work on my flaws in order to be a better person to my family, friends, enemies, and most importantly..myself.


Let's kick summer off on a good start and let's do it right. I'm not changing or evolving just improving. :)


"ain't nothing like them summer nights."

My Girls Say The Darnest Things

"it's time to stop rewinding & go forward." 
Ash Tunac