Without The Triumph

Aggravated that we are here again.
The conversation sounds familiar?
Maybe because we thought this was resolved but yet some people have a hard time letting things go.
What do you want me to do?
I cant change the past, we both were wrong.
I have so much love for you but we cant go back.
We cant have time stand still for us.
It kills me because as much as I think we are okay, the tone in your voice says it all and I know that things are not the same.
I never changed, I just adapted to my environment but the girl that you once loved is still here. She just grew up.
Our lives are different now, I know what you are thinking but that does not mean that my heart has closed its doors.
It will always have a special place for you…I will always be here for you.
Do not say those things to me.
You know the things that you try to say...they just give the situation false hope.
I really don’t want to hear your empty promises.
Be real with me. Tell me what you think is really best.
You know that I have bent over backwards for you time and time again.
I tried to support your dreams even if it meant putting mines on hold.
I’ve secluded myself from my other friendships and relationships just to tend to yours.
I know that I didn’t have to but yet when you asked for me to be by your side..I didn't have to fulfill your needs but deep in my heart, I knew that you really needed me.
Lets go back to our conversations where all we needed to do was sit and enjoy the scenery—those were the best conversations because we knew exactly what the other person was thinking without saying a word.
This is reality for us and I guess we are not comprehending it as well as we should but then again our life would not be as exciting without the triumph.