- Aaron Rodgers
Green Bay Packers Quaterback
After recieving the MVP award for the 2011 Super Bowl
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
In To Fall Out (Part 4)
(continued from Part 1, Part 2, Part 3)
It finally hit me. I can't do this anymore. I have to do what I have to do. I mean, he was fun--we had fun. I wanted all of this confusion to stop.
When I told him we had to end our fling, he didn't resist. As much as I wanted him to soothe the emptiness that I was feeling in my chest, I kept telling myself that it was for the best. Although, how could it be for the best when I feel like I'm leaving something behind? And how could I even say that it feels like a break up when we haven't even officially started?
He texted one night that he wanted to talk and with no hesitation I went over. As soon and I saw his face there it was, that feeling that I just couldn't describe. Suprisngly, it wasn't awkward. I mean, it felt as if we were legitamitley cool with what had happened couple of days before. But then he just had to pick at my brain and explore my most inner thoughts. The thoughts that I was secretly keeping to myself because I for one was still trying to find answers.
As we both looked at the celing he said, "I'm not afraid to be alone."
Puzzled, I said, "neither am I."
As I turned my head over, I told him, "I'm not afraid to be in love, I'm just cautious with things that I can't completley control."
In all retrospect things like my family, my career and my destiny, those things can only be fulfilled if I make them happen. Even though there are some shades of gray, matters of the heart are more complex because emotions are involved.When he kissed me that night, I realized then that his eyes were closed.
Then it hit me again.
As much as I felt content being alone, I just could not deny this feeling.
When I looked into the gateways of his soul that night, I remember that at that very moment, he was completley perfect.
It was not being alone that I feared.
I was afraid of going back to that place that I swore that I would never revisit.
I was afraid of allowing love from a person as authentic as he into my life and into my already fragile heart.
I was afraid of not being in control.
In the beginning I was vigilant because I swore I wasn't going to fall. With no back up plan at hand, the issue now was trying to fall back out.
They say that plans are tentative but I never thought that someone like him would ever consider a person like me. However, I for one knew that I wouldn't let this fling manifest emotions that could tentatively hold us back from the life-long plans that we have been working so hard to reach.
..."Cause whenever you're near, it's love that I fear. I've been saved in this shell and I can't tell if I'm living at all. I've been doing well on my own but maybe it's just me who I'm decieving. Cause everything about me leads right to you.'...
It finally hit me. I can't do this anymore. I have to do what I have to do. I mean, he was fun--we had fun. I wanted all of this confusion to stop.
When I told him we had to end our fling, he didn't resist. As much as I wanted him to soothe the emptiness that I was feeling in my chest, I kept telling myself that it was for the best. Although, how could it be for the best when I feel like I'm leaving something behind? And how could I even say that it feels like a break up when we haven't even officially started?
He texted one night that he wanted to talk and with no hesitation I went over. As soon and I saw his face there it was, that feeling that I just couldn't describe. Suprisngly, it wasn't awkward. I mean, it felt as if we were legitamitley cool with what had happened couple of days before. But then he just had to pick at my brain and explore my most inner thoughts. The thoughts that I was secretly keeping to myself because I for one was still trying to find answers.
As we both looked at the celing he said, "I'm not afraid to be alone."
Puzzled, I said, "neither am I."
As I turned my head over, I told him, "I'm not afraid to be in love, I'm just cautious with things that I can't completley control."
In all retrospect things like my family, my career and my destiny, those things can only be fulfilled if I make them happen. Even though there are some shades of gray, matters of the heart are more complex because emotions are involved.When he kissed me that night, I realized then that his eyes were closed.
Then it hit me again.
As much as I felt content being alone, I just could not deny this feeling.
When I looked into the gateways of his soul that night, I remember that at that very moment, he was completley perfect.
It was not being alone that I feared.
I was afraid of going back to that place that I swore that I would never revisit.
I was afraid of allowing love from a person as authentic as he into my life and into my already fragile heart.
I was afraid of not being in control.
In the beginning I was vigilant because I swore I wasn't going to fall. With no back up plan at hand, the issue now was trying to fall back out.
They say that plans are tentative but I never thought that someone like him would ever consider a person like me. However, I for one knew that I wouldn't let this fling manifest emotions that could tentatively hold us back from the life-long plans that we have been working so hard to reach.
..."Cause whenever you're near, it's love that I fear. I've been saved in this shell and I can't tell if I'm living at all. I've been doing well on my own but maybe it's just me who I'm decieving. Cause everything about me leads right to you.'...
Friday, February 18, 2011
..."For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope that you have the strength to start all over again."...
-Benjamin Button
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
In To Fall Out (Part 3)
(continued from Part 1, Part 2)
As he stared into my eyes, I couldn't help but think about how wonderful this man was. He was everything that I could ever ask for. As cliche as it was, my reality was way better than my dreams and as much as I wanted to incorporate him in my future, our dreams were leading us in two different directions.
I've thought about cutting out the intimate part of our relationship because it was safer for us to be friends. What was the sense of continuing it all when there was no mutual goal to attain? He was going to leave in a couple of years and so was I. However I also thought about what I had promised myself years ago: to live life without any regrets. I did not want to move on with my life without giving us a shot.
"I really like you," he whispered.
And as I stared, I tried to tuck my worries away.
As I touched his face, I looked deep into his beautiful hazel eyes, kissed him on his forehead and whispered back, "you're amazing."
Because he was nothing less than amazing. He had a genuine soul that was undeniable, he had a heart that you could not help but adore and he knew all of the right things to say or do in order to wash away all of your troubles.
While we were laying in bed, I gently caressed his chest. I just wanted to soak it all in. Even if was just simply being beside him.
"What's wrong baby?"
"Nothing. Just looking at you."
As he gently brushed my arm he trusted his intuition and asked, "tell me what's on your mind."
So I let him hear it.
"We can't get attached."
He had his way with words and instead of agreeing with me, he said "we both believe that things happen for a reason." As he kissed me, he gazed into my eyes with contentment. "We just don't know what the reason is just yet but trust me when I say that I enjoy all the time that you give me."
There I'am saying in my head, that line was perfect! Where is the director waiting to call cut? Because really, who says that? But as he sat up to lean over he said, "for our hearts sake though, we'll stop this when you feel like it's best."
With relief I told him that he had to make me that promise.
And as he kissed me for the last time that night he said something that reassured me he was paying attention to every secret pocket of my heart, "We'll try our best so that both of us don't end up hurting."
..."The way you move, the way you look at me. There's something about the way you see things
its like a change of scenery. Everything about you, I just want more of."...
As he stared into my eyes, I couldn't help but think about how wonderful this man was. He was everything that I could ever ask for. As cliche as it was, my reality was way better than my dreams and as much as I wanted to incorporate him in my future, our dreams were leading us in two different directions.
I've thought about cutting out the intimate part of our relationship because it was safer for us to be friends. What was the sense of continuing it all when there was no mutual goal to attain? He was going to leave in a couple of years and so was I. However I also thought about what I had promised myself years ago: to live life without any regrets. I did not want to move on with my life without giving us a shot.
"I really like you," he whispered.
And as I stared, I tried to tuck my worries away.
As I touched his face, I looked deep into his beautiful hazel eyes, kissed him on his forehead and whispered back, "you're amazing."
Because he was nothing less than amazing. He had a genuine soul that was undeniable, he had a heart that you could not help but adore and he knew all of the right things to say or do in order to wash away all of your troubles.
While we were laying in bed, I gently caressed his chest. I just wanted to soak it all in. Even if was just simply being beside him.
"What's wrong baby?"
"Nothing. Just looking at you."
As he gently brushed my arm he trusted his intuition and asked, "tell me what's on your mind."
So I let him hear it.
"We can't get attached."
He had his way with words and instead of agreeing with me, he said "we both believe that things happen for a reason." As he kissed me, he gazed into my eyes with contentment. "We just don't know what the reason is just yet but trust me when I say that I enjoy all the time that you give me."
There I'am saying in my head, that line was perfect! Where is the director waiting to call cut? Because really, who says that? But as he sat up to lean over he said, "for our hearts sake though, we'll stop this when you feel like it's best."
With relief I told him that he had to make me that promise.
And as he kissed me for the last time that night he said something that reassured me he was paying attention to every secret pocket of my heart, "We'll try our best so that both of us don't end up hurting."
..."The way you move, the way you look at me. There's something about the way you see things
its like a change of scenery. Everything about you, I just want more of."...
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's=Appreciation of Love Day
So no one really calls Valentine's Day a holiday because there are some of us that refer to February 14 as a "Hallmark Holiday." It may be another scheme by corporate America to lure consumers to spend more money in order to stimulate our economy but I think that we all have lost what this day really means.
As my favorite blogger Jozen said, there are different types of people on V-day. He says that there are couples that are into the day, couples that are over it and couples that use the day to make-up for all of the BS that they have gone through before February 14. However, you also have the people that are single but have someone in mind or are single and have no one at all.
I never liked Valentine's and it's not because I have had bad experiences but why do we need a special day to tell someone how much we appreciate and love them? Shouldn't that be done everyday? And yes getting surprise chocolates, teddy bears, and flowers are sweet gestures. However when a person expresses their gratitude and love with sincerity, there are no materialistic things in the store that can ever compare. A simple kiss on the forehead, a simple five second gaze into a person's eyes while saying "I love you" or "thank you for being you" is priceless.
So screw the labels of calling February 14 Valentine's or Single Awareness Day, I've always looked it as the Appreciation of Love Day. So to all of my friends that have a Valentine today, may that love grow more each day. For all of my friends that are single today, may you never forget to always love yourself first and may the love that you've been waiting so patiently for find you.
FROM ME TO YOU ON THIS VALENTINE'S DAY:
...To all of the hearts that I have broken, thank you for teaching me how to woman-up with what I really want in life. To all of the people that have broken my heart, thank you for teaching me how to mend one. To all of the people that I LOVE and are currently in my life, call it Valentines or Single Awareness Day; but I call it a day to APPRECIATE THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE THAT HAVE SHOWN US HOW TO LOVE...
"As the years they pass us by, we stay young through each other's eyes. And no matter how old we get, it's okay as long as I got you babe"...
As my favorite blogger Jozen said, there are different types of people on V-day. He says that there are couples that are into the day, couples that are over it and couples that use the day to make-up for all of the BS that they have gone through before February 14. However, you also have the people that are single but have someone in mind or are single and have no one at all.
I never liked Valentine's and it's not because I have had bad experiences but why do we need a special day to tell someone how much we appreciate and love them? Shouldn't that be done everyday? And yes getting surprise chocolates, teddy bears, and flowers are sweet gestures. However when a person expresses their gratitude and love with sincerity, there are no materialistic things in the store that can ever compare. A simple kiss on the forehead, a simple five second gaze into a person's eyes while saying "I love you" or "thank you for being you" is priceless.
So screw the labels of calling February 14 Valentine's or Single Awareness Day, I've always looked it as the Appreciation of Love Day. So to all of my friends that have a Valentine today, may that love grow more each day. For all of my friends that are single today, may you never forget to always love yourself first and may the love that you've been waiting so patiently for find you.
FROM ME TO YOU ON THIS VALENTINE'S DAY:
...To all of the hearts that I have broken, thank you for teaching me how to woman-up with what I really want in life. To all of the people that have broken my heart, thank you for teaching me how to mend one. To all of the people that I LOVE and are currently in my life, call it Valentines or Single Awareness Day; but I call it a day to APPRECIATE THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE THAT HAVE SHOWN US HOW TO LOVE...
"As the years they pass us by, we stay young through each other's eyes. And no matter how old we get, it's okay as long as I got you babe"...
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