"When someone walks out of your life, let them. There is no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah, you may miss them but remember...you weren't the one that gave up."

What For?

We study so hard reading them books.
And what for?
The grades.
We break our backs working countless hours.
And what for?
To pay the plastic.
To provide us shelter.
Clothes piled in this corner.
Shoes stacked up to the nines.
A library filled with words of stories that we wish we could have.
A happily ever after means what to you?
Living comfortably?
To raise a family?
Or is it walking in the latest trends or driving the hottest rides?
Maybe it is living in a house with a pool and a basketball court.
No piked fence you say, you'd rather have a stone wall with them big steel center gates.
Why do you need gates like that? For security?
Although, how could you feel secure with metal around you when the true intruder resides within yourself.
Or with your dreams.
So tell me why are you living your life the way that you are.
What in the heck for?
What purpose do you believe you fulfill?
You see everything has a purpose.
Everything that is currently at your grasp.
The people that walk in and our of your life.
The experiences that you have endured or glorified.
So when you ask yourself why you are doing the things that you are doing or are saying the things you speak of, ask yourself what for?
Is it to hurt your competitors or to improve your game?

It is all for a bigger purpose for a bigger picture.

So tell me, what do you think is yours?

Practice What You Preach

So it is easier said than done. When your friends come to you with a dilemma, you often find yourself giving them advice. Telling people what you would do if you were in the same exact situation. However let's be real. Sometimes we can't take our own advice. I believe it is because when we are not in the situation ourselves, we think with our heads. Then when we are actually facing the dilemma in our own lives, we think with our hearts.

Many of us can be hypocrites. I'm not perfect and know for fact that I'm a walking contradiction. We give in and we break promises. We go back when we are suppose to go forward. We ponder when we are suppose to be forgetting.
However this time, let's start all over and start keeping our words.
Let us mean what we say.
We need to stop talking and start doing because on a real tip,  keeping our word is what gives us our credibility.

She Told Us So

She told you that if you left her for me that you would be unhappy. She told you that it was only a matter of time until you would be running back to her. You disagreed. She wanted us to fail and she thought we were not made for each other. You told her that you were in love, that we were in love. Although maybe she was right because look where we are now.

We've been trying to beat everything that has come our way but I guess this time, we are unrepairable. You left her for me and when I couldn't give you what you wanted, you ran back to her. Then when she was getting attached again, you came back to me. You said she didn't make you happy but then why did you go back all those times?

Even though you weren't in love with her, she was in love with you. She went crazy saying that she deserved better and that she wasn't going to allow you to come back. Although after every arguement with me, she still picked up your phone calls and still invited you over to her house. You finally told me that there was no more fooling around, that it would just be you and I forever. Of course she was angry because she thought that you were the one. She tried everything to tear us apart and we relentlessly wanted to prove her wrong.

Now that she has someone new you say that you are off the hook but at the same time, we are done as well so who you gonna run to now? We often blamed her for our problems but the reason we are not together anymore had nothing to do with her. This break-up was all on us.

I guess we are the fools now because we didn't see what she did. I wonder if she knows that we are no longer together because if she did she would say, "I told you so."



..."Baby yes you said, said you were in love. 'Cause when you left me you said that you wouldn't be comin' back, remember that but I never agreed. I hate to say it but I told you so."...

Letter 6: Your Best Friend

Dear it-ten,

Even though we are blood, from the time we were of age where we knew what was going around us..we never really got along. I remember being 4 years old and always fighting with you. Pulling hair and secretly pinching each other. However who knew that later down the road that we would become as close as we are today. You know all of my best qualities and my flaws yet still love me for everything that I'am. You have been there to see me rise and you have seen me get back on my feet during all those times I've fallen. You know all my secrets and I know yours. You have always been there to keep me in check and tell me the straight facts like a warm shot of dark Henn.

We are a month apart and I often feel that you are the sister that I've never had. We tricked so many people in high school making them believe that we were really blood sisters with different dads. LOL. We have similar birth marks on our thighs for god sakes. I appreciate that you take care of my brother, you help mom from time and to time, and you are always looking out for me. You've always been willing to go to concerts with me, to hike with me, to shop with me, to try new things with me, travel with me and most importantly you have always been down for me. They say that blood is thicker than water and with the trials/tribulations that we have been through, this blood line will only get thicker and will be flowing stronger than ever. Love you sis.


your sister from another mister,
em-mel

"I can say I made a lot of mistakes, but I don’t regret things. Because at least I didn’t spend a life standing outside, wondering what living would be like."

— Sarah Dessen