A Girls Intuition

I just don't get it. When guys lie to us females. I've always said that a girls intuition is stronger than a man's because it is an instinct that is a part of our nature. The females that I run with are very observant, mindful and are debatable. So when guys try to lie, they are just wasting their time. A girls intuition is something that should not be reckoned with.

Sometimes it makes me wonder about guys that think that they can run game or blatantly tell a white or half lie. Guys like that may think that we nice women are gullible and are fools but don't you worry; in the end we will have the last laugh because we have seen it all to many times. Some guys boast that they can blind side women with their ways but what those guys don't know is that we see right through them and we see it as this: just a different competitor with a play that is about to get juked.

So guys be mindful of this. When you run something and us women don't give you crap about it, don't be so quick to celebrate with your boys--just so that you can tell them just how you big of a man you are for getting away with it. Because inside we are laughing at the fact that you think we are so naive not to think things through. And if we ask you something that hits a nerve of yours, don't get so irritated because smart women don't just conjure up stories just for fun or just so that they can add a little drama to make the relationship interesting; women ask because they don't want to assume. What guys need to realize is that women are like the police, we can have all the evidence in the world but we still want a confession.

It is not that we are monitoring you, it is just a different story when you try to the test the mutual trust of the relationship. When guys lie, it is a sign of disrespect because you would think that anyone in general would be adult enough to tell you the truth. So when us females ask you a question, don't give us an alibi. Tell us what really went down. Lies don't end a relationship, usually the truth does but if you got enough time to compose a lie then the obvious truth is, you can't deal with the actuality of your actions.

So let's keep it real. If you are not real with yourself then you don't deserve to be with someone that has been nothing but honest with you. So boys don't test a woman's intuition because it is as if you are trying to substantiate their intelligence. And just because you got away with things in the past, don't underestimate...because the love that she has for you, it will trump over yours. Just when you thought that she won't sense a thing, love always has a way of catching up to lies and when the time comes, your lies won't be able to look her straight in the eyes.

It's Okay

It’s okay to fall apart sometimes.
You don’t have to have all the answers.
All those pieces you’ve been holding for so long while you raced around your life looking for the last roll of scotch tape, go ahead, let 'em fall.
Every last piece.

It’s okay to scramble.
You don’t have to always be calm.
All those plans you’ve been stringing together like a bead necklace.
Every last one is beautiful, so beautiful, so go ahead.
Keep grabbing at everything you ever wanted, especially those things you feared you’d never have.

It’s okay to hope against hope.
This is not the time to be reasonable or rational.
Run, run as fast as you can against the tide.
When the last wave sweeps over you
and every hope seems to be dashed
You will still be here, right here, and you will not be sorry.

It’s okay to cry.
Even if you feel as if each tear is an accusation against your strength, your resolve, your natural equilibrium.
Cry in the car.
Cry in the shower.
Cry in bed when no one is listening or looking.
Berate yourself for not being able to get it together and then cry anyway.
How else will you know you lived, if not for these tears.

It’s okay to be lost.
Toss the map.
Leave the keys in the car.
Get out and walk.
Forget about everything you ever knew.
Crumple up those directions and move now from memory.
The memory of your heart.
The memory of your breath.
The memory of that one time you laughed so hard you cried.
The memory of that one kiss, the one that left you longing to be loved.
At the end of your unraveling,
you will look down and see your own feet that have carried you so, so far
and you will decide for once that it is okay
to sit down
to rest
to hold out your hands
to lift up your head
to open your heart...
to the possibility that you were never alone after all
not for one minute.

Go ahead, be disappointed.
Nothing turned out how you hoped.
Sit under a tree and tell me the whole of it and I won’t say a word.
I won’t say a single word.

It’s okay to feel lonely.
At the end of your wanderings
when there is no more scotch tape
and you can’t find your bead necklace of dreams anywhere,
your heart will trace an unpredictable path
to this place
and you will have just enough courage
to let love tell you the terrible beautiful truth
of how loved you were
and how even now, at the end of everything
it’s not too late.

"Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen."

Winston Churchill

How To Love

Just when you thought that this one was going to be different, just when you thought this would be the person that would help you re-define the meaning of love...it all falls apart and you are back to square one. Because you thought that you learned from your past mistakes, you thought that this time you will take a risk and this time, you felt that you were dealt the right hand...only to realize that everything you thought was a dream come true was just a mere illusion.

No one will tell another how to love because to each person it means something different while at the same time, each relationship embodies a different kind of love. Even though we try to do things differently in every relationship, saying that we've learned our lessons...what we don't recognize is that we are constantly learning. We rely on those type of experiences with other people to enlighten us in more ways than one but when the movie scripted scene does not play out, we go back and blame ourselves, boiling down to the same redundant statement...that maybe we weren't enough, that we didn't do something right... that we just didn't know how to love.

There is no perfect way to love someone. With love you say it through your words, you show it through your actions and most of all you feel it in your heart. The most important type of love that we need to learn is how to love ourselves. If we can't love ourselves then there is no way that we can love anyone else. In time we learn how to love when we are with someone, when we leave someone we love, or when a person that we love leaves us.

No one is perfect but  someone will come along and will love you for all that you are and they will admire your efforts because true love has no barriers. Whether things are meant to be or not, in the end we learn how to love the people and things in our lives; we learn how to love ourselves; and most importantly we learn how to love life.

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life, that word is love. You can never go wrong when you learn how to love with that you are and there is no better love when you love with all of your heart.




..."Now you in the corner tryna put it together, how to love. See I just want you to know, that you deserve the best you’re beautiful."...

"Your job in one way of speaking, is to empower humankind in every possible way that you can. The victories that you have every day, as small as they might be and as vast as they might be, are why you are here."

Bartholomew

Not That Girl

As much as you got me smitten and as much as you got me high on cloud nine, I'm just not going to be that girl. Despite our relationship and our circumstances, I'm just not going to be that girl. Wondering if you are thinking about me or worrying if I'm doing things right,   I'm just not going to be that girl. When you don't text back or answer my calls, I'm not going to be that girl that starts thinking wild visions in my head of you being intimate with someone else.

So you did me wrong and broke my heart but I'm just not going to be that girl that will take all that you have just to empower myself. I'm not going to be that girl that will destroy your possessions just so that you can see how much rage I have inside. So do both of us a favor and save your breath baby because I refuse to be that girl that soaks up all that you say. I'm not going to put you on blast for everyone to see; just so that they know the severity of your mistake because I'm mature enough not to be that girl.

I'm not going to be that girl that let's you take advantage of me. Of course I love doing nice things for you but I'm not going to be that girl that will tend to your needs at your convenience or command. So when your nights seem cold and you are lonely, think again because I'm not that girl that will fill your void. And yes, I know  the girl you did me wrong with is pretty but I'm sorry; I'm not going be that girl full of insecurities.

There are great people all around me and life is too short. With that said, I'm not going to be that girl that goes to her friends with the same broken-record love story. I'm not going to be that girl that let's a guy take all of the good away from her. I'm not going to the that girl that will give you more chances. I'm just not that girl that says it but doesn't do anything about it. I will not be that girl that allows a man to take away her dignity.

Everything you think I am, I'm sorry if I don't live up to your expectations; quite frankly I'm just not going to be that girl...you know why? because I'm better than that.


..."I see it your eyes, can't say that I'm surprised, I'm not that girl."...